Who am I & What do I want from life

I just wanted to talk a little bit about my self and what I think about life in the first post of mine. I am a young woman who believes in many things, and who thinks can accomplish many things in her life. I am not a native English speaker, so there might be many grammatical and other mistakes. But I am trying to improve and learn more. I like to read in English as much as possible and I just like to think about it and other things and I get angry if I don’t have time to think.
I believe everyone has a reason to be born on earth. God didn’t just give him or her life because He felt like it. There is always, always a reason behind it; it’s just a matter of fact whether people realize their role in life. I have been thinking about life and my future a lot lately, perhaps it is because I was almost 20 now. I am not saying I am so old already, what I meant was when people grew older they start to think all this things. Some people even commit suicide because they are scared to live, can’t face the facts or any other purpose.
However, I personally think taking your own life is the dumbest thing one can do. There are way too many people out there who are trying to live, want to live but they can’t, because of sickness, financial problem or other influences.
So what is the purpose of my life, what do I want from life was a big question to me. I remember one day, I was thinking so much about my life and future, and I came to conclusion that I never really thought about what I wanted from life. Of course, there were times I want to be millionaire or wanted to be a great teacher. Nevertheless, I wasn’t sure about what I wanted from life, what I wanted to become. So I opened a new document and started typing under the title “purpose of my life”. I wrote there so much staff and I stopped when I stared crying so much. I figured out something, but not everything.
Anything could be changed over time, because I can’t tell what is going to happen in the future. I must be prepared in anytime, no matter what. But I believe in destiny, things happen because there is a reason behind it; whether it is good or bad, you will learn a lesson about life.
One can learn much from books and internet, but the most valuable lesson can be learnt from life. And I am trying to learn as much as I can from all sources.
I love to read books, magazines, internet articles, newspaper and anything that catches my attention. In the next posts I want to write much about the things I have learned from books and other materials. So for now I want to end this in here.